The iPod Pocket

In a valient attempt to keep my thoughts from whining about how painful it is to run, I’m always listening to my iPod.  Most of the time, however, my thoughts will get stuck on something and wonder quite a bit:  Here is what went through my mind ‘playlist’ today:

I’ve gotten lax in my running … While I’ve FINALLY made it back to 30 minutes, I’m somewhat addicted to those fancy treadmills they have down at the YMCA.  I swear, an elephant could run on them and they are so smooth that they wouldn’t even jiggle!  The temp is a comfortable 70 degrees.  I have access to all sorts of crucial infomation such as MPH, incline & heart rate.  This next part is almost embarrassing … they even have these foo – foo fans to cool your face right there on the treadmill. 

So today, when I couldn’t make it to the gym and needed to run outside to get it in, I had a little conversation with Jesus about my comforts. 

I want to live my life for what lasts, keeping an eternal focus.  I want to be willing to suffer for Jesus and the gospel, but I don’t want to actually suffer.  Sure, I’m willing to lay down my life – but please make it quick.  And if possible, can it wait until my kids are grown and they don’t need a mother so much?  And while you’re at it Jesus, could you make it so that I die while being hooked up to an IV filled with straight chocolate (or vodka)?  Thanks ….

Seriously?  Is that the kind of person that I want to be?  Rather, I want God to write the Plan of the Day for me, and suffering as ordered from the menu, I rejoice that He counted me worthy.  That I seriously give God His right to give and take from my life – and am HAPPY to let it go.